It's been a hard time for me this past few weeks...really2 hard.. i just knew that my f***k up stalker is still somewhere out there stalking me!!! WTF?????? who the hell are u to still stalking me and telling to my parents on my every move???? GOD!! get a life la k... when i think about it... it makes me feel scared to go anywhere...as if i have to disguise myself so that he wont see me.. hurm perhaps i need a WIG!! so that he wont notice me?? is it a gud idea at all?? hahaha i dont think so...

anyway just forget about him...let him do wut ever he wants to...but seriously if u do cross the line this time u gonna get it.. AND I REALLY2 MEANT DAT!!~~ owh yea...last friday and saturday, i felt a bit shitty!!! i dun really know why...i feel like i've been trying so hard not to be the invisible between my lovely 2 frens...Ayesha n Mashi...but i guess i failed!...

Ayesha is the most pretty among 3 us..so of coz i cant compete with her...im not jealous at all...infact im proud to be her best fren(hug n kisses)...same goes to Mashi...she's the funny one and the most stylish among us...but when we go anywhere..everyone just tend to notice them ONLY....its ok... i dun really care about that...but sumtimes i do feel hurt u know...when ppl can say hye to u gurls laughing and everything but when it comes to me..ppl hardly notice im there...is she invisible or what??

and most of this time happened when we went to lofting~~(my fav place ever!! even ppl ignore me)...or maybe we went to other event as well...i have to admit... im the quite one among all of us..but i've try my hard to fix myself and try to be outstanding as u are... but it just so hard....i love u gurls a lot!! really2 do... u've been there when i need u the most....but wut ever happened on last friday nite....it such a shame...i know both of u were having a blast nite since mashi get a kissed from Taq (did i mention im kindda like him)...but its ok he all urs... it seems that we can get anyone we like as long as we were drunk aite...and Ayesha i know u were a bit tipsy thats why i can see u speak so loud about what ever happened in loft while we were in mamak...sorry to say this but Wan Da Bomb n Wan Kembs and me a bit annoying with it...

look..the only reason why i need to change my venue of having a fun last friday is because i dun want to be caught again with my stalker...u gurls know wut he had done to me...so wut ever happened in loft u just should keep it to urself...try not to make it soo blastttttttt till somehow u hurt my feelings...i dun have anyone else besides u gurls...thats why im not really in the mood on the next day... i know it is sooo obvious still i try to hide it...

so i guess im kindda glad that i finally back in penang so that i can forget wut ever happened last week...i need time to center myself back... being emo its not my thing...sorry gurls...sorry again if my post hurt u somehow...but trust me...im not like our other fren...i still love u gurls just that i need time to center back myself :-) mwahs xoxo...~~