~~it is so sad when u are alone in this world without the one person u can be loved by and also be in love with.. the saddest thing is when u finally know someone and believe that he actually can make u happy suddenly betray your trust.. why is it this thing always happened to me.. even though I’ve been through it before still shit happened.. I wonder why? don’t I deserve to get a chance to be in love and to be loved? why is it so hard for me to get the opportunity.. while other people are easy to get what they want but yet they don’t really know how to appreciate it.. sometimes I feel I want to be in their shoes.. to be happy at least once.. but the only things that I got it just pain and heart broken.. even worst the wound that I get wouldn’t heal till now… why people always want to hurt me?? what I’ve done wrong to them that I deserve to be treated this way?? all this question keep playing in my head.. some people even have choices but yet they still pick up the wrong one.. I wish I had a choice but I don’t.. I thought things would be better after what had happened.. but then unfortunate for me.. things are still the same.. GOD have given me strength and I do thank HIM for that.. but still couldn’t resist myself to question and wonder why things have to be this way.. I always tried hard to please people…in return they hurt me badly.. why I have to face all this(dont tell me that it just going to make me feel stronger coz it didnt).. Years after years I always pray that things would at least change and I could at least feel a bit happy with my life.. no I didn’t.. things just getting worst.. people can always say its ok jaja things will get better.. the truth is.. it will never get better.. I do smile.. but nobody really knows what im trying to hide behind my smile.. this is just the confession of my broken heart…just want to share what I feel right now.. I don’t need sympathy from anyone.. it just my expression towards my screw up life..~~